Sinking

Have you ever felt it? The feeling of sinking. You can be happy and jolly at one moment and then just boom. Your happiness fades and you just start sinking into darkness. It's like you're the titanic and you hit an iceberg. You start sinking. Everything gets darker, colder, death feels nearer. And you're just sitting there, not able to do anything about it. You just stare as you go into the darkness. You start shivering because it's so cold. You start crying because you realize how dark it's getting. And pain builds up because of the pressure on you. You're trying to breathe in but you can't because of the water. The pressure on your heart, your lungs, your brain. You just wish it to end. You're just sitting there waiting to die. But then someone comes along and they pull you back up. Maybe not all the way but they release some of the pressure. They give you a breath to breathe and for a little while longer, you feel okay, like you can survive. And God comes and he gives you another breath. It gives you a hope but also a fear of sinking that far again because you know you will.